I think that the best thing I can do is to wait to be in front of her at least. It’s gonna be hard and a big pain in the ass, but it’s for better…

And thank you! Throwing that out of my chest really helped me a lot, it means so much to me. A huge hug and a kiss for you ^^

PS: Is there any way I could know who you are? 

I don’t really agree with you, but thank you so much. Everybody loves to see someone saying that he’s “good enough”.

Yeah, she knows. And I feel like she likes me too, but everything’s so strange… Sometimes I feel like she treats me in a special way. There’s that moments when she tells me she loves me, and she tells me she’d love to have me in her bed. Or she tells me she missed me while at class and that she kept drawing and writing things about me everywhere, but then there’s that other moments. That moments when I just feel like “Another one”. Like… Just someone else to her. Or that moments when I feel like she doesn’t even wanna talk with me, but I see she’s talking with a lot of people…

I don’t know, I probably overthink everything too much. But I just want her attention so bad. Not for myself, but for her. I’d love to talk with her all day long, make her laugh, make her feel alright, loved, and even happy if I could.

I dunno, my head is a mess right now to be honest. I guess that what happens is that I’m afraid to lose her, when she’s not even mine to lose. And that I wanna make her smile, laugh, feel alright, remind her she’s beautiful, and that there’s someone on earth who just wants her more than anything else.

But as I said, she could have anyone. She could have anyone better than me. Plus, we live a bunch of miles from each other. Even if I’m gonna go to see her this summer, I guess it would be much easier if we lived near. Hm… Maybe I should look on the good side of things. Maybe the problems are just made up on my mind.

I miss being with her but I’ve never been with her.

I miss her hugs but I’ve never had one.

I miss sleeping with her but we’ve never slept together.

I’m afraid of losing her when she’s not even mine to lose.

Fuck my mind, really.

There’s that girl I knew for three or four years now. I always felt attracted to her. I’m not gonna be a hypocrite and say I liked her since the first day, ‘cause I’d be lying, but we always had some kind of natural connection. We’ve started talking a lot recently, and damn… I just feel I belong with her. But it’s just not that easy… She still has some feeling for his ex. And on the other hand, she’s the kind of girl who always has like a dozen of guys right behind her. And I don’t know… I feel like I’m falling in love, and I’m afraid. I’m afraid ‘cause I don’t really know if all of this will go on. If it’s gonna work between us. I mean… I’m just an option. I’m not used to be a priority. And I just fear that someday a better guy than me is gonna appear and he’ll get her without even trying. It always happens…

And damn it, I don’t know why, but every single night I start thinking about that. I start thinking about not being enough. And about how I wish she was sleeping right by my side so I can wake up to her smile every single day of my life. On the day, when everybody’s watching me, I pretend I love myself to death. I pretend I feel so right with myself, I pretend I’m so confident. But I’m not. And… Yeah, you know, just that… I’m getting pretty repetitive. I just feel like I’d wait for her if she told me to wait or just gave me something clear to believe in. But that’s not the case. And I’m just afraid of falling alone.

Shit, I don’t know, I just miss her.



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Kaiser, a police dog, being saluted as he walks to be laid to rest after being diagnosed with severe kidney disease.

this is the first post to actually make me cry

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I love Merengue so much ♥♥♥

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Send me some questions! I’m so bored and overthinking about some things so I’m not gonna go to bed anytime soon and I’d be so grateful if you entertained me for a while. I’m willing to answer everything honestly as long as it has nothing to do with anybody’s privacy but mine :)


my self esteem has two levels

  1. im a worthless piece of shit who deserves no love
  2. bow down before bitches i am your queen

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sodium fan club meeting 2014

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nani was NINETEEN and such a fucking badass who was so protective of lilo and just ROLLED with aliens being a thing towards the end of the movie. #1 Disney relative of all time.

I have honestly been waiting AGES for the right gifset to express the wonderful perfection that is Nani. She is not only protective of Lilo, she respects the way Lilo’s imagination and quirkiness works.

Pudge the fish got a peanut butter sandwich every Thursday. Nani does not argue the logic of feeding him, only suggests an alternative sandwich when they are out of peanut butter. Lilo was allowed to take as many photos of whatever mundane or odd subjects as she wanted and Nani would get them developed. Nani recognized what were important habits for Lilo.

When Lilo asks for a pet lobster, Nani does not tell her that lobsters are not pets. She tells her, “We don’t have a lobster door, we have a dog door.” She makes sure the woman at the pound does not tell Lilo that “Stitch is not a real name”.


The only time we truly see Nani get angry with Lilo is when she is scared of Lilo being taken away. Nani spends the entire movie stressed out over taking care of her sister, trying to find a job, trying to make sure her sister has a friend, and yet she is always willing to put that extra effort, over and over again, to make sure that Lilo always believes that anything is possible.

This is a great moment because she probably *remembered* that Lilo said this once. And you know what? Shes not ending this day by letting her little sister think this is her fault. She’s not having an easy time trying to be a parent, but she knows none of this is her sisters fault, and shes not going to let her think it is. 

And half of her terror of losing Lilo isnt even just losing her family; its knowing that wherever Lilo goes, they won’t know how to do these things. They won’t understand her. 

What a good movie. 

Casual reminder that the reason Lilo obsessively feeds the fish is because her parents died in a rainstorm and she firmly believes Pudge controls the weather. If you pay attention to the feeding sequence you will notice that storm clouds recede and dissipate, a visual narrative that confirms this.

It’s not just a habit. It’s a very real part of Lilo’s healing process and Nani understands that.

Also if you pay attention to Nani’s room you’ll notice she had surfing posters and trophies. She was very much on her way to being a pro surfer but had to give it up to become the adult Lilo needed her to be.

And not ONCE does Nani show her sister any resentment. It’s worth it to keep her family together. This is a young woman who is willing to sacrifice all of her dreams and make incredibly grown up decisions.

What I am saying is Nani is the best disney princess of all time. Disney Queen even.

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Inspired by this.

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